death;

What is wrong with this world? What is it doing to us and why can other people handle it better than others? 
WHY DO GOOD PEOPLE SUFFER?
Where is the book that says this person deserves to hate everything in their life so much that they have to take there own life?
If you could be stabbed in the heart without the knife its happened to me twice in the past week. Ive lost two people I truly care about. People who have seriously made me the person I am. 
How does one go on when so many bad things are happening to them? How do I pick up and continue with my life the next day?
I just felt like I could finally do it again and I can't. Its like a whole new fuckery everyday.
I think that death, hands down is the worst fucking pain anyone can feel and Im tired of it. I have never cried so many tears. Its like a thousand heartbreaks plus heartbreakings for other people.
You had a beautiful daughter, she is so smart, so fucking beautiful and one of the best girls I have met. I loved you so much but how, how could you do this, how could you do this to someone, how could you do this to her. 
Im sick to my stomach and I can't breathe. 
They say bad things come in three but if theres a third I won't be able to go on. I can't do it. 
I will always be your running man momma k, thank you for everything that you've done for me. I will always remember when I was at the house and my mom said the meanest things to me in an email and you held me and told me that you would be there for me. You've always believed in me and I grew up around you more than I was around my own mom. I cant tell you how many times I have told people that I was described as "balls to the wall" when I was younger and you were the source. You always called me a buttmunch and you did everything you could for me. Im so sorry I wasn't in your life as much during high school I'm sorry that you felt you had to do this. But I will be here for our angel that is still left on earth and who will be hurting forever.
Rest in peace Momma K. I still can't believe it.